This Is Not A Love Scene by S.C. Megale
Lights, camera—all Maeve needs is action. But at eighteen, a rare form of muscular dystrophy usually stands in the way of romance. She’s got her friends, her humor, and a passion for filmmaking to keep her focus off consistent rejection…and the hot older guy starring in her senior film project.
Tall, bearded, and always swaying, Cole Stone is everything Maeve can’t be. And she likes it. Between takes, their chemistry is shockingly electric.
Suddenly Maeve gets a taste of typical teenage dating life, but girls in wheelchairs don’t get the hot guy—right? Cole’s attention challenges everything she once believed about her self-image and hopes for love. But figuring this out, both emotionally and physically, won’t be easy for either of them. Maeve must choose between what she needs and what she wants, while Cole has a tendency to avoid decisions altogether. And her failing lungs might not wait for either.
May 7th 2019 by Wednesday Books
I’m going to start this off a bit differently with the warnings first. I feel like there are quite a few to mention and I may forget some. Sorry for that. Talk of suicide, suicide attempt, cutting/blood, rude things said about disability, hinting at abuse, hoarding, sex (18+), language. The book goes into quite a bit of detail about muscular dystrophy with talk of dying from it.
Maeve wants to be a director and is working on a short film for school. She has muscular dystrophy, is in a wheelchair, and has a service dog. While holding auditions for actors, she finds herself very attracted to Cole. They flirt a bit by text, but he’s different with her in person. Maeve wants to live as much life as possible, and that includes having sex. She’s already a very flirty person, but this is the first time that it might be possible. Maeve’s friends are mostly the people involved with film. Mags, Elliott, and KC are her best friends.
Mags is dating a guy that says horrible things to Maeve, but Maeve tries to brush it off. Elliott is fun and supports her. KC is more quiet and weird. His facebook page is filled with dark things and he won’t let anyone come to his house. Cole is confused about how he feels about Maeve, but KC feels a lot for her. Maybe love, maybe just really likes. Maeve is struggling because she’s not used to one guy being into her, and now she has two. She is attracted to Cole, but he ghosts on her texts. She loves KC, but can it be more than just friendship love?
Most of the book is Maeve living her life, trying to figure out how she feels about these boys, and her dealing with the difficulties of her disease. She starts to realize how many things she will miss out on, knowing that she won’t live a long life.
One of the things I liked about the book is that it was sex positive. It was a bit weird at times, but Maeve was never ashamed to know what she wanted and to ask for it. We need more of that in YA (older YA). But the book wasn’t perfect and I found myself struggling to pick it up at times. Overall, I liked it, but didn’t love it. I was very happy to find a book with a major disease/disability. Most that I see cover things like cancer or depression. But I believe this is the first book I’ve read about muscular dystrophy.
I gave this book 3 1/2 stars rounded up to 4 on goodreads. Thank you to Wednesday Books for sending me a finished copy for review.
Have you read this yet? Is it on your TBR? Have you read many YA books where the character (main or other) is in a wheelchair?