Summary from Goodreads:
When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.
To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.
If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.
The hype around Adam Silvera is well deserved. I was crying within the first 35 pages of this book. Adam’s writing style flows and he has such a way with words. I really felt that I knew each character and exactly how they were feeling. Be prepared with tissues. This is a really emotional read. I definitely related with Griffin and his compulsions. Not as bad, but I count everything and have a thing for odd numbers (his is even numbers).
Because the book has been out for awhile now, there isn’t much I can say that hasn’t already been said before. So I’m just going to share a few quotes to show you how amazing this writing/book is.
“Is it weird to envy him for that, for witnessing something I would never want to see with my own eyes? I have all this history with you, Theo, but he has pieces of your puzzle that would destroy me if I ever had to put them together, and yet I still want them.”
“Even if I only got to spend that first drive to the planetarium with Theo, he broke me in a way everyone should be lucky to be cracked open at least once. I had the privilege of being destroyed by him until we found a better, real me inside of the person I was pretending to be. I hope I make him proud.”
“I should’ve guessed. In the second month of the year, he was here with you. In the second-to-last month of the year, he’s here with me. I will never wrap my head around how a single moment can keep throwing our lives around. I feel like a rock being skipped through the ocean-pain, relief, pain again, relief again, eventually destined to sink.”
Honestly, I can just keep going. The writing is just that good. If you haven’t read this one yet, you can add it to goodreads here.
History Is All You Left Me was released January 17th 2017 by Soho Teen.